Everyone seems to think I’m lazy…I don’t mind, I think they’re crazy

Those are lyrics from a song I’m listening to right now.

Rant of the day: New York vs. San Diego mentality

It seems that I have to walk on eggshells nowadays. Dude, people here can’t take you telling you their shit straight. I mean, that’s how high school drama starts (or middle school). “Oh, don’t tell this person that person that I think they’re like this and such” …of course I used to be like that but in New York, talk about new found freedom! People tell you what they think straight up. I enjoy the honesty and I languish in the vulgarity and the bluntness of it all. I miss my blunt nyc friends. It was cool to talk about sex, people, social ethics, movies, and films….and everyone had their opinion and everyone respected everyone’s opinion. I don’t think it ever got to a point where it was like, “Well…then…YOU SUCK!” I miss that intellectual stimulation.

I’m not saying people are NOT intellectual stimulating in San Diego, it’s just a lot rarer and there’s a lot of emotions and egos involved in the matter and I guess I should be a little more sensitive to people’s living situations and such, but I really don’t care. I want people to open their mind and be able to think “hey, you know what, I’m not forced to be this way. I can change, I can be this. I don’t have to live up to anybody’s expectations other than my own” but of course they’re friends who want you to be a certain way, parents who want you to be a certain way, and co-workers who want you to be a certain way. To be able to speak your mind without people disrespecting you is the way to go (yo).

10 things that have changed about me. (Format: before and after)

10. Before: I used to care what people thought about me
    After: Who gives a shit what they think
11. Before: I used to say “yes” to whenever my friends wanted to go out even though I didn’t want to go out or was too tired
    After: Dude, I’m too tired. Have fun without me
12. Before: I used to be afraid of being left out
    After: Spending time with yourself gives you more self confidence about who you are and how you can have fun on your own terms. You only feel left out if people adamantly try to make you feel left out. You are better off without those people anyway
13. Before: I used to want to lose weight to make guys want me more
    After: I’ll lose weight on my own terms. Anyway, I haven’t been having problems lately AND who wants to be with a guy who just wants you cause you have a hot body?
14. Before: I used to be afraid to flirt with guys
    After: I’m not meeting the right guys, might as well have fun with the wrong ones man!
15. Before: I used to be afraid to call my friends too much
    After: If they are really your friends, they really don’t mind.
16. Before: I used to put up with people and their boring shit and these people who wouldn’t put up with my boring shit.
    After: I have caller ID (hee hee). And my shit is interesting now (or so I think)
17. Before: I think I’m a rocking chick…what is wrong with me? Why won’t anyone get with me?
    After: I am a rocking chick. What’s wrong with THEM? Their loss.
18. Before: I used to fear arrogant and cocky people and be intimidated
    After: I pity arrogant and cocky people. Obviously they’re overcompensating for some sort of void and are hiding it sorely
19. Before: I used to be ashamed to cry
    After: It’s okay, as long you’re lying in a fetal position in a corner (heh heh heh)

INTERESTING STUFF:

My friend John tried to read my online journal and look what happened:

HAHAHAHA

Access Denied
The requested document, http://www.livejournal.com/users/anniewaits18,
will not be shown.

Reason: DDR score = 150. This page will not be displayed because it
contains prohibited words or it has exceeded its tolerance of
questionable words.

WEIRD. I guess BIG BROTHER.

Awesome comment I got today:

Your just a rockin chick cuz u like to put it all right in everyone’s
face.
I think that alone puts you in the rockin category.

Rock on rocker.

NIICE (go ego! go ego!!)

what else:
I STILL GET CARDED FOR BUYING CIGARETTES!! What the hell?

FILM:
*Star Wars 2 (digital vs. non digital) : DEFINITELY DIGITAL
*Dog Town and Z-boys: so THAT’S what zephyr means! (I thought Stacy Peralta was a girl…oops. I guess I was wrong)
*Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom: Damn that’s a good movie. That heart scene still gives me the queasies (whatever queasies are)

Top 3 colors

3. sky blue
4. navy blue
5. pacific ocean blue (yeah baby!)

Top 5 reasons you should be in a committed relationship:

5. sex
6. somebody to make out with you on national holidays (i always wanted to make out on the 4th of July…awww…fireworks)
7. you can put that tongue ring to use (finally!)
8. if you want to try something new, you usually have a partner to try it with (it’s more fun that way)
9. you can probably kick ass on taboo if you’re competing against single people (this is just an assumption)

Top 5 reasons you SHOULDN’T be in a committed relationship:

5. you don’t have to be anybody’s mommy
6. you don’t have to answer to ANYBODY!
7. free dinners from different people
8. all the money you earn is for you yo (lower cell phone bills yo!)
9. as mary j. blige would say “no mo drama”

my finger dexterity is wearing thin (I have no energy level whatsoever)